Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Being a Disciple

I said yes to Jesus a long time ago when I was a little girl and felt His Spirit drawing me to Him. I am learning daily to be sensitive and to hear and obey that very same Spirit that brought me out of the darkness into His kingdom of marvelous light. Here recently the Lord has been burning in me the call to discipleship and reiterating what it truly is to be a disciple.

Mat 28:19-20Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age."

I somehow have overlooked this all my life, I kinda of always categorized this verse as an evangelistical movement. That once we got people saved that they were on their own. False.

-2Co 3:17 says “Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.”

We have the very Spirit that raised Christ from the dead because the Lord Is a Spirit and He is living in side us! WO! Amen! That ought to light a fire in your britches.=)   

So this is what’s going on, I am learning to be discipled and make disciples. I am having one on one intentional relationships with a few ladies that the Lord has called me too and being a mother in the faith. I am learning to be a wholehearted follower of Jesus who multiplies and giving it all for King Jesus and giving it all for the increase of HIS government and peace and Glory!! Amen. BTW, I suck it up sometimes but I am full aware that any good that comes from me is ONLY from HIM! Dying daily and saying ‘Yes’ to the call! Amen! The following letters are my 'Yes' to the call of being a disciple and being a mother in the faith in all my inadequacies He is capable.

- letter #1
Just wanted to throw my “Yes” in the pot. I knew I was going to say yes since I read the forwarded email from Ryan but I’ve been waiting before the Lord contemplating the greatness of it all.  My husband is gun ho about this discipleship stuff and I in my heart know it is right and well with my soul. Yet, I, in my flesh am terrified to death of messing things up, so to speak. I believe it is right and good and what the Father is doing with all my heart and I am ready to take the leap of faith and go “all in”. The poker term seems relevant to me. I am saying yes, yes to what may come and yes to the call of discipleship. The Lord spoke the word “intentional” to me a few months back and I feel His working in this was the preparation that my heart needed to answer the call to discipleship. I may not know all that there is to know but I desire to grow in this and I know that the Spirit inside me is more than adequate to supply me with all that I need. Ready to lay all that I have down and quit wasting time. The end.

letter #2
I in wholehearted agreement am saying Yes and Amen to the laying down of this fear and the going after CHRIST with our all. Fear in itself separates us from God, right?!?  I in my confession to you before confessed that I have been struggling with this fear as well: Fear of the unknown, fear of getting “It” wrong and just fear that I might literally have an accident speaking with such “authority” in someone’s life. You see, I am a super non-confrontational person and literally cry when someone honks their horn at me when I am driving, tells me no or gives me a mean look for any reason.  Yes, I am a sissy. But in my heart of hearts I want to be like Him and grow into everything He wants me to be. I love my Jesus, want to love Him more and I believe with all my heart in what He is doing and in the call of being a disciple.  So after replying with the last ‘Yes, I am all in!’ a greater peace filled my soul. This may get ‘hairy’ but it’s gonna be oh, so good!
Ok….rambling, this is what I wanted to email you about, the Lord led me to (purely by accident on my part but knowingly not His) 2 Corinthians 2:1-5. Which says, 1Co 2:1  And I, when I came to you, brothers, did not come proclaiming to you the testimony of God with lofty speech or wisdom. For I decided to know nothing among you except Jesus Christ and him crucified. And I was with you in weakness and in fear and much trembling, and my speech and my message were not in plausible words of wisdom, but in demonstration of the Spirit and of power, that your faith might not rest in the wisdom of men but in the power of God.
You see, my greatest fear has been that I in myself would not be good enough (know enough or say the right things)….but you know the thing is that I in myself wouldn’t be. But it is by the authority and power of Christ Spirit that is in me, that I CAN lay down this fear and follow after Him and His Will and His great commission. I want this, I want Him, I love Him.

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